Clouds

this video means a lot to me. in a nostalgic sort of way

my life, in all its emptyness (when im alone and pondering), feels a lot like the mood of this video. seemingly dark and dreary at times, yet beautiful and hopeful towards the end.




i need to be honest. i dont know who i am. at least, not competely. probably because i had a hard time being honest when i was a kid. i began working on that towards the end of high school and im still trying to figure out who i am. like the boy in the video, im to forever endure life alone until i do.

THE Ennd.

Im really gonna miss you...

people can see when you care what one person thinks. anyone. the only way to beat that, is to... feel around in the dark and figure out what's really there... like in the dark version of your living space. after you do it enough, you wont have to turn on a light... or feel around; taking baby steps and worry about stubbing your toe. Im sure everyone knows this, by now... i knew too... but now im beginning to understand... i know whats there... i just wont tell others... then they'll come in and trip over things... the more i think about it, the more i realize how hard it is to let people in knowing that... im just gonna get hurt later... its unfair... everything now is unfair... because, ill always want more... everyone always wants more... why do i let people in?