Im really gonna miss you...

people can see when you care what one person thinks. anyone. the only way to beat that, is to... feel around in the dark and figure out what's really there... like in the dark version of your living space. after you do it enough, you wont have to turn on a light... or feel around; taking baby steps and worry about stubbing your toe. Im sure everyone knows this, by now... i knew too... but now im beginning to understand... i know whats there... i just wont tell others... then they'll come in and trip over things... the more i think about it, the more i realize how hard it is to let people in knowing that... im just gonna get hurt later... its unfair... everything now is unfair... because, ill always want more... everyone always wants more... why do i let people in?